Last August Post

people misunderstand me when i say i'm averse to being around people and take it as i just loathe hanging around people. let me clarify: i don't hate being around people, i only dislike having to contribute to small talks when i don't feel up for it. it's a drag, because i always find myself lack of things to say--things that interest them usually do not interest me. but these days when i'm stuck in this kinda situation, i try to conceal my facial expression--to not seem bored, because it might come off as condescending, and that's not nice. i really like them, they're good people in general. anyway, at first it seems like a pain to have to mask my true self, but of late it's become a challenge, a daily practice to monitor and my facial expressions and filter away critical emotions that might make me vulnerable. it's fun to think of each day as a practice ground to master a poker face; i need to be less of an open book. for it's a fact that, sometimes my eyes give off too much, even when i'm reticent. (and if nothing else, it'd be an entertainment to keep myself amused at work.)

it's august 31st. Malaysia's Independence Day. lately, news about Malaysia that made to the international platform are "Muslims banned to watch Black Eye Peas concert", and "Muslims protested with a cow head and demanded Hindu temple to be relocated". cow head? really? what a farce! at times it's hard to feel proud of it when the country seems to be going backwards. but today in the spirit of Merdeka, i shan't dive into the many issues that are plaguing the nation. (i'll save it for future posts-- and though discussions probably won't help much, it's better than keeping mum and pretending it's all well and dandy.)

here's two video clips i'd like to share. the first one is our national anthem, the second one a cynical portrayal of a "perfect" future when the society gave up their fundamental right to speak up. happy Merdeka!

here's more, if the second video interests you.