few days ago, a twitterpal wrote this: "Without peers we live uninspired, and descend into an abstract mediocrity." i felt like a thief who broke into a house whose light was suddenly turned on, and there i was, standing right in the middle of someone else's house, completely and utterly exposed. the words pierced right through me, forcing me to admit that i am and have been in this abstract (or not so abstract) mediocrity for the past 9 months. no kidding! i am in an information desert. circumstances beyond my control put me in this desert, but not doing anything about it is my fault, and i have only myself to blame. in any case, my latest revelation is this: if my job can't provide the stimulation i desperately need, i will look for my information oasis elsewhere.
on a lighter note, writing about roommates issues and the fox face (this may sound silly, but i feel rather trumphant for coming up with this nickname for that douchebag!:P) made me feel much calmer. as if the act of putting down my vexation in concrete form of words magically dissolve it away. and really, penning them in unlimited counts of words beats 140 characters in twitter or raving about it to friends anytime. i feel lighter now, i can fly. :)
and of late i've been reading my old old posts (the ones years ago). my reaction: eew, did i write that???! unbelievable. i wanna just tuck them away in my closet and never to discover them again. ever. so maybe it's time to hide this blog and create a new blog. hmm. yes, it's definitely time to change my blog layout and design. as for the contents, maybe i'll keep them around... just to keep track of how much i've grown (or not).
2 comments:
sigh i feel so stagnant and uninspired too these days..
aiyoh why!!! i thought working in surg should be exciting and exhilarating every night!!! no?
i found my oasis! just dunno if i should execute or not! still thinking bout it..
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