Book of Fate

anyone who pays the tiniest bit of attention to the news would know that Air France 447 crashed into the waters of Atlantic last week. they're still looking for the black box, i think. how could any of them in the plane have known that everything will end there, in the midst of the deep dark water nonetheless? such is life eh.

the book of Fate dictates how our lives will turn out, no matter what you did or didn't do. doesn't it scare you sometimes, to know that you have no control over what's gonna happen in the future and that you can't predict or be prepared for it? am i gonna live to 50? 64? 78? am i gonna die young and be frozen forever at the age of [insert a relatively smaller number], or die of old age with wrinkles and flabby skin and toothless? if i could go online and buy this book of Fate from amazon.com or ebay that would be awesome. but of course, that would constitute as cheating. and that's the one thing we can never do, we can't ever cheat on Life (or Death)! :/

these days unpleasant feelings recur more frequently than the good ones. very often i forget how good it is to be living. to just be breathing. who cares about whats gonna happen tomorrow as long as we live today to the fullest, right? why worry when worrying won't do any good? yahdah yahdah yahdah. yes yes i know. i just have to practice them in real life. and i will! :) i just have to wait it out... for the sinking feeling to pass. so meanwhile, i have Breyer's fat-free (which we all know is a lie) double choc or haagen daaz' coffee flavor ice cream to choose from.

hmmm. life. it gets better with practice, and some getting used to. non? ;)
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sidenote: may the victims of AF 447 rest in peace. my condolences to the families and friends of all victims.