Senescence

the images i have of you were how you looked when i left two years ago
and i recalled myself being extremely sad for a brief moment when i saw the gray locks of yours that was never so obvious till that day
i knew no one could escape the fate just like how our ancestors couldn't
i knew its only the natural progression of one man's life
but i never knew i secretly hoped it wouldn't happen to you
until i saw you aged so much in the course of 18 months it actually gave me a shock
when i should've known that this is Time taking its toll on everyone of us
and that there really isn't much we can do about it
i guess in other words you can say i'm in denial
and i can't really accept that eventually It will happen
i feel sad, frightened, at the thought of losing you
i feel resentment towards Time for stealing you away from me
ahh but i know very well i shouldn't feel any strong emotions at all
because, just like the snails that were crushed mercilessly under the footsteps of strangers
it is merely another event that's rolling out from the big reel of Life

yet i am but a human
nothing close to a godly being who can be rid of emotions such as these
so i continue to feel and mourn, and fight the demons in me that brought forth such emotions
and pray that that day won't come anytime soon