Was reading one of my favorite blog about the Bersih rally in Malaysia, and knowing that 40,000 people were there for the same cause touched me so very deeply. It touched me more so than seeing people celebrating for Merdeka. So what if I might not live to witness the change in Malaysia, it doesn't mean what these people have done is going to waste, nor does it mean I or any other people shouldn't do anything in our power to help shape the country. If I were back home, I'd join the rally too. Hearing our dear PM say it's illegal to have rallies or demonstrations is absurd. Seeing how the mainstream media distort the truth is even more so. Absurd not in the sense that it's a surprise or think it couldn't possibly happen, but more like recognizing it as something that shouldn't happen. Someone thought it's because I'm still young, hence full of ambitions and dreams. Righteousness and ideals are swelling inside me. Most probably think it's just a phase that everyone goes through. Maybe they're right. Maybe I'm just being a youth, naive and full of pride, and the need to fight for what I believe in seems very important. Maybe it's just a stage I have to go through, and find out for myself that perhaps it truly is just an illusion that situation in my country could be changed for the better.
Maybe. But I'd like to believe otherwise. And if a big fat slap on my face is what I need to realize the reality of this fucked-up world, then so be it. People say those who have an optimistic outlook of life are more naive, ignorant, and they live in a bubble of hopes and dreams that most likely wouldn't come true. But hey, if living this way makes them happier, and motivates them to do something good, then why not? As opposed to realizing the 'reality' of the world we live in, (or so they claim) and be depressed about it all the time, I think it's smarter to believe there's hope, there's light. Besides, what's reality anyway. The big R word is just as real as how one want's to perceive it. And perception is nothing but artificial construction of the brain (quoting my neuroscience professor). Millions of surges of electric potentials firing from the uncountable neurons we have.
Anyways. Dad tells me to concentrate on my studies first before thinking about anything else, when I called to tell him how I felt about the rally. Gave me a long 'circle of influence, circle of concern' lecture. Bahh. I feel that Me dad sounded as if he's worried or concerned I'd abandon my studies and join the radicals or opposition team and fight the government! I won't lahhh okay. So chill, dad. :)
cheers.
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