But the thing about new blog / new year / new self is this- it's just an illusion. I can start a new blog every year, with a new personality/character, but for all we know- I'm still the same person. And unless there's a time machine to bring me back to the past, I'll still be here and nothing is really 'new', and we don't really get a fresh start.
So no new year resolutions this year. No reflection about 2014 either. I'm just glad I managed to bring myself here to write something. Honestly after such a long time of not writing, I forgot how to write. And all the things I've wanted to write about has left me, and right now there's only an empty shell waiting to be filled with new ideas/thoughts to be shared. But I'm not going to make a promise to self to write every day or every week or whatever, because the last time I did that, it ended horribly.
This year to me is a year full of uncertainty. I have no idea what's going to happen to me- whether I'm going to graduate as planned, what I'd be doing after graduation, where I'll end up etc. But I'm done worrying. So I'm just gonna let it play itself out, trusting that things will work out just fine. :)
Signing off, xoxo.
1 comment:
My two cents = keep the blog. Let it lie fallow if need be, and don't force yourself to write out of duty or obligation, because that way lies making a thing that should be creative and cathartic into anything but a chore. Too many friends of mine have shut down their blogs/endeavors, then gone and created a new one months later when the winds of life bring a resurgence of desire to make, to communicate. Best leave this as a hoe to come back to when you are ready, than tearing it down and deciding later to build another.
I can't imagine how I'd be feeling, faced with the uncertainty you have for 2015 ahead. All I know is you have people who will support you through that uncertainty, and help you find the opportunities in it.
And don't stop taking pictures. Those are worth 1000 words each, or so we are told, so it's keeping up your writing, in a way. :)
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