Less Than Perfect

this year's chinese new year wasn't too big a deal for me. in fact it was almost non-existent, except i made it a point to call most of my friends and family back home to wish them happy new year. through the earpiece i could vaguely hear the new year songs and the firecrackers which got me excited for a good few seconds!! :))) that was my slice of new year, transmitted a thousand miles across the ocean via the cell phone technology.

i can't explain how badly i wanted to be back at home just enjoying my favorite time of the year, but due to work and a lot of other complications i couldn't afford to do so. yet despite the disappointment that enshrouded my little world, the remnants of memories of chinese new year celebrated in the heart of penang and KL were held ever more tightly in my heart. and perhaps in the midst of reminiscing, i might have painted a picture perfect with only the giggly moments, abundance of cookies and food, family jokes and gatherings and palm reading during cny (we all know it's never the case, especially when all the relatives get together - there's sure to be dramas and gossips); it's still better than forgetting it altogether, no? it would be utterly sad if there comes a day that this 15-day long of celebration meant nothing to me anymore.

it's not the first year i'm not at home for cny, and its true that celebrating cny anywhere away from home is rather meaningless. but instead of feeling alienated or numbed, or worse - feeling indifferent about it all, i choose to celebrate it my own way, even though it meant not out there doing something and declaring to everyone else that i am indeed celebrating it.

it's a little less-than-perfect one this year, but i embrace it with all my heart anyway. wishing everyone a happy new year! moo~ :)