Denial, Acceptance

It's become just hi's and bye's and how-are-you's and i've-missed-you's of late. Is it just me or what. I didn't wanna blog about this, telling myself if I don't think about it maybe it'll go away, maybe it's nothing after all. Maybe it's just my imagination..

So I shut off that circuit, I stop thinking about it, I pretend there's no wall building up. Yet slowly I came to realization - it's not just me. I feel it, I feel the change in atmosphere. The temperature a notch lower than usual. It's not just me who feels the presence of the wall... and even more so, it's not just me who's in denial..

In physics class when I was in high school, I learned that if you face the mirror at an angle such that you can't see yourself but can see someone/something from the mirror who's at the same angle but at the opposite side with regard to the mirror, then it means they can see you too. (uhhh. did i just complicate things?! haha what i meant to say was, if you feel it, most likely the person on the other end does too.)

The only difference is perhaps only I care enough to be sad about it. Perhaps it doesn't mean anything to them. Perhaps they're so busy living and enjoying lives that they just didn't notice it. Perhaps to them it's only natural for things to turn out this way. Perhaps it's just me after all. Me that thinks a tad too much, me who's being oversensitive, me who feels the magic is gone, and something has come to an end... or at verge of being so..

Whatever it is, I don't wanna know.

I don't wanna know I don't wanna know I don't wanna know. Shutting my eyes tight, hands covering my ears, holding my breath, and pray that I don't hear see or smell anything.

I shall hang on to the last bits of it, hold it close to my heart, until it completely dissipate. God knows I'll do my best to revive the magic. But for now, I just wanna say, whatever that happens next, I wanna thank you all, for all the beautiful memories we've had. It's been a great time, it's changed me so much, made me a better person too. So thank you, for being such an important part of my life in the past few years. Love, always.