Dejavu of the High School Days..

I resolved to not get hurt. not get upset over people who probably don't care about myself. be prepared that disappointment will hit me right in my face like the Bludger when i'm not paying attention. since the day i know Disappointment years ago i told myself i shan't allow self to be pulled down by the gravitational effect of the big D.

But it's hard to avoid when it hits you from behind. after all, it's things that are most unexpected that'd cause a bigger blow. can't think of what i did that i deserve such cold shoulder from you. it doesn't make sense to me. and you not wanting to talk bout it seemed to add puzzlement to the whole picture. i'm not stupid, nor am i insensitive. so don't come and tell me it's nothing i'm worrying too much. because i know, and i felt it. and feelings as such won't go wrong.

used to take pride in being able to protect myself so well. but i guess this time you won. rest assure though, not for long. because i won't let you break me down. i'd have worse times that this, so i'll pull myself together and move forward. it's your loss anyway, for not wanting to resolve whatever it is you have against me. because i don't think i've mistreated or betrayed you even once all this time.

so it's your call. talk to me when you feel like it.