Feeling isolated amongst laughters and jokes and people, the more people I meet the more I just wanna be alone. The more I smile and laugh and say silly nonsensical things or on auto-pilot carrying out meaningless just-so-to-fill-the-silence-in-the-air talk, the more I feel like crying. The more I try to be bubbly and sociable, the more I feel choked. Don't know what's going on, I'm avoiding the issue altogether by keeping myself busy with schoolwork and friends and activities.
Everyone feels this way every now and then huh. It's one of those days again. Am gonna go sweat it out, and spend some time alone. And pray that it'll all go away soon. :)
Meanwhile, I will smile my brightest smile and answer this when you ask "How are you?" - I'm good, I'm good.
Make believe, I told you right.
3 comments:
"I'm doing great, how bout you?" ;)
Anyways, you should check out the term "Hikikomori" from wiki or anywhere else. I think it totally describes what you feel..
we all feel like tht once in a while, if not too often. hope things are ok otherwise?
i like the term "hikikomori" :) where did u find that word?
Jun: thanks for your concern, things are okay in general. :) sunday was a good day. i feel much better now =)
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