Distracted

summer break is so close i can almost taste it. i've drawn up big plans of what to do, which books to read, who to meet, where to go, etc. and i just can't waitttt!!!!! omg i'm so excited excited excited!  but why do exams always have to be on the last day of school? this thing that is between me and my freedom is killing me! i'll be looking at my textbook and lecture slides but the mind is at the beach, curling up in bed enjoying a book, having good coffee good conversations with friends, sipping pina colada and enjoying the seabreeze… the list goes on.

… and then somehow i'm at a clinic with Mal and she points to the highly distended jugular veins of this lady lying on the exam bench, and she struggles to breathe, she's turning blue, she reaches out to us and i see fear in her eyes. we're supposed to do something but we don't know what. shit shit shit that lady's gonna die if we don't do something about it what can we do, what should we give her, what drugs what drugs, beta blocker? ACE-I? wait or is it diuretics first? omg omg omg. the sudden panic attack brought me back to real life, and oh thank goodness that was only a dream. phewwwwww! ok i guess that's a wake-up call to go study. no more falling asleep or dreaming about summer break! focus woman!