Idealism-1 Pragmatism-0

today things got a little out of control and i can't help but wonder, how did things get to this point? i don't wanna point fingers, and i certainly don't want to start the whole blame game, but knowing what happened and be completely honest about things is absolutely necessary to prevent similar mistakes as such.  sigh. perhaps i'm at fault too. perhaps i should've stuck my head out there even if it might be butchered. perhaps I should've made my point heard even if it meant creating some friction with others. perhaps i should've argued until i have it my way, because i truly believe this whole thing was a little impractical to begin with. not impossible, nor unpleasant, just impractical- especially when all things are - as they should be - considered. but i guess, not all things were considered; and we got lucky. yet, just because money didn't come out from our own pockets doesn't mean we shouldn't be conscientious and prudent when spending it. i mean, there is logic, and then there is logic. but most of all, there is the sense of morality. it was supposed to be a small thing with one objective- to show our appreciation. somewhere along the way, because of ideals, expectations, inflexibility, and a slew of other problems, we lost our way. oh well. no use crying over spilt milk. i shall go cheer myself up with some ice-cream. (an abrupt end, yes, but if i go on i'd be able to write a book about it. so here it all ends. say no more.)