Mind Game

sensation. sometimes you don't, and can't, see it--but you feel it. does it mean it's unreal? is it just a figment of your imagination? probably.

but who's to say any figment of your imagination that doesn't occur to others is unreal. at the very least, it's real to you; no one can deny that. what occurs in your head is yours, and rightfully so.

it happened again; it's the second night in a row. the tingling sensation, not unlike the feet of a centipede touching ever so lightly on your skin. except perhaps it's only a hundredth, maybe even a thousandth of the aforementioned description that lingered on for hours, at the center of the forehead, where the hairline intersects with the forehead. maybe it's just paranoia. it could be just the tiny baby hair tickling the forehead. so the hand inevitably reached out to scratch it, hoping that persisting itch, however mild it was, would disappear.

if acoustic is to haptic, then this sensation, in an acoustic sense, would be something like a low humdrum that goes on and on at a very low frequency. it's there it's not really affecting you but it could be really annoying especially when there's no way of stopping it, since you can't tell where the sound originated from.

at some point, patience reached its threshold and the forehead was red from all the scratching. suddenly a horrifying thought came to mind. what if it was some kind of minuscule bug, unnoticeable by the naked eye, trying to burrow its way into the head. what if it was some brain-feasting bug?! the brain was convinced it would be punctured by the bug and became bug food. so it went on a defensive mode, trying all sorts of remedies like wiping alcohol on it, washing face with cleanser, and then with facial scrub, followed by a facial mask, all of which the brain has no idea if it would work but just did it anyway.

thankfully, it was but a scare. no prions-alike bugs, no burrowing into the scalp, no holes in brain. i deserve a night of peaceful sleep. cheers. :)