i'm back. :) for, a few minutes anyway.
ohh i have so many stories to tell. been dreaming some violent stuff, but none of which i could remember. all i DO remember though, is markovnikov's rule, saytzeff's rule, hoffmann's degradation, converging/diverging lenses, chirality superimposable mirror images etc. boring stuff like that i'm sure no one's interested. bahh.
what time is it? what day is it? all i know is that i'm 18 days away from the big day. how do i feel? panicked, apprehensive, nauseated, angsty. basically everything one could possibly feel when facing one of the most important life-changing hurdle,the kind that determines one's future. yet what lies in the future, no one knows. maybe i won't make it, maybe i wasn't ever meant to walk this path and i just needed a slap on my face to come back to reality (which leads to the next big question: what is reality anyway; then what?). or maybe i'll make it, who knows. as much as i want to flip to the end of my book to read my ending, i can't. guess i'll just have to figure it out as it's being written and created, by moi no less.
but even as i'm stressing out for the exam, i am doing well. i needed the stress to push myself further anyway. :) in the midst of those episodes of panic attacks and shortness of breaths, i manage to find time to laugh. to feel the sun's warmth, the spring breeze, to smell the salty sea breeze and feel the sand in between my toes. to enjoy a good cuppa hazelnut latte and just smile to myself. :)
here's my secret (well. not so secret anymore): there's this place in my heart that's always giddy with laughter and overflowed with love. this place is the core of me, the portion that if you take away, i won't be me anymore. and really, all i wanna do is share this love and laughter that i feel - without being seen as some cuckoo egg that's a bit cracked, that is. :P
so are you feeling happy lately? do you feel the urge to do silly things that tickles your funny bone, or your friends'? have you been smiling lately? if not, do this. draw smiley faces on your toes and take a picture of it, then send it to your friends. i used to do that all the time when i was younger - draw on toes, not the 'sending pics like these to friends' part. :))) its a lotta fun. oooh and even more fun if you can draw on your friends heh. ;)
5 comments:
Hmm... Sorry, not really into foot fetish....Hehe... :D Never knew you like drawing things at your toes. Guess it's all covered up. :D
What is the core of me? Never asked myself this question before. Hmmm... Probably something childish and naughty?
ehhhh! it's not foot fetish okayyy! i dont do it ALL the time on a regular basis. only very rarely when i'm bored. its not what u think! :P
the core of you? i wouldn't know. but i say, you should totally explore it and write in your blog! :)
18 days?? so quick? darn! and u're still drawing smiley faces on toes! ;p go slow on the chocolates k? :D all the best! and don't panic!
i thought it was your feet. hiheiheihe !!!
jun: *gasps* how did you know whats in my snacks cabinet?!!! how did you know im consuming chocolates like no one's business?! thats eerie! :P i'll try my best to not panic.. but i thk thats highly unlikely.
pohli: hehe no it wasnt. :)
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