some people find new year's eve and new year's day just another day like no other. not me though. i find myself reflecting on the past year, my deeds and emotional roller coaster, mistakes done out of imbecility and the price i had to pay.
have to admit that i erred quite a great deal, but it's also been a great year in some other ways too. learned to maintained a car, moved out from my comfort zone and into the "real" world, met new friends, graduated(!!!), kept in touch with old friends, volunteered in the hospital for almost a year now, got a job! a lot of it seemed impossible and hard to do at that spur of moment, but i did it anyway. as for the few major slips, oh well, i guess it's life. after all, that's how we grow and learn isn't it - through mistakes.
it's been a rough ride, but it's never gonna end, especially this upcoming year - i expect it to be even tougher, bumpier. while everyone is out celebrating the end of 2008 and welcoming the start of another year, i'll have my commitments to fulfill. and i assume it'll be that way for quite some time. it's painfully hard to be disciplined and stick to a strict routine, but because i have a dream, i shan't be deterred. it's a price i have to pay, and it's now or never.
so this year, for me, there's no bibulous evening no party no champagne no mini quiches, no friends around. but i wish everyone a happy new year nonetheless, and i shall join you guys for a round of drinks and celebration when i'm done with my exam. looking forward to that! :)
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