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uhm. that's the sound of my brain exploding.

that's right. like a bomb that just went off, counting down to the last few seconds... 3, 2, 1, *insert the explosion sound here - however gruesome you imagine it to be*

the gooey brain stuff is somewhat unpleasant. messy, even. i don't recommend this type of suicide, people. :/ i was gonna write about Beijing Olympics and the respect that all the sportsmen/women yearn to earn for their countries, the national pride of the Chinese; the controversies and the negative publicities what with the bombings in Xinjiang, and the Tibet issues, and the limitations of press freedom. and on the other side of the world, some pretty serious unrest is going on between Georgia and Russia. :(

i was gonna write bout those stuff, but i can't think straight because of the upcoming exam i have to sit for, and i feel like i'm not gonna do well and if i really didn't do well i wouldn't know how to face everyone. especially those who had high expectations. i can't talk to anyone right now because i can't bear to hear another 'you'll do well' or 'you'll be fine' because what if i wont?. those words that are meant to be encouragements will sound like pressure to me right now.

not that i'm absolutely depressed, or that i've lost hope. i'll do my best and leave the rest to God.

in the meantime, let me share some funny conversations at work:

me: so uhm, if you could be anything in the sea, what would you be?
Dee: i'll be... a puffer fish (or did she say clown fish? i forgot)...
Lis: starfish.. i'll be the biggest one, the ones that's so huge it can even eat other starfishes. -.-
Wen: (i totally forgot her answer.. gotta ask her again)
Tony: i'll be a shipwreck...
me: wow.. shipwreck is the coolest answer ever. (so from that day on, every time i see tony i have a picture of a shipwreck in my head hahaha)
(after a very long time)
Dee: i change my mind. i wanna be the water.. the sea water. so that i can be everywhere in the world at the same time...
Tony: eeew... but then everyone's gonna pee and poop in you, that's disgusting! and the oil leaks and whatnot. eeww!! HAHAHAA...

Suz: what kinda animal would you be?
(and then my boss walked into the lab)
Boss: what? what did i miss?
(Suz repeated her question)
Boss: oh i'll be a fusarium. you know, the fungi?!
(Suz and me had a quizzical look on our face)
Suz: uh yeah we know what fusarium is. but whyyyy?
Boss: because it's a fungi. "fungi" -- "fun guy"?? geddit???
Suz and me: -_____-||

Ant: Susannnn! you see these roots? (he's wearing a t-shirt with roots coming down from the round collar.)
Suz: yeah why.
Ant: if these are the roots, then this right here (referring to his face) must be the most beautiful tree of all...
Suz: -_____-

i love working with these peeps. they are the funniest bunch they crack me up all the time. :) there's a lot more funny/nerdy/cold jokes... i just can't remember all right now. till the next time! :))))