In Us You Live

How do you say 'I'm sorry' without being too impertinent or sounding too impetuous. How do you express your dolor towards those who're grieving, even more so than you are? How do you even begin to utter that kind of emotion, the kind where you've just lost someone so close to you, with words? Is it an art that takes years to master, or is it an art no one could ever surmount?

She's always been my role model, my confidante, my mentor on academics and life in general. Like an older sis that I never had. A mother, a daughter, a friend, sister to her siblings, a doctor, a colleague, a granddaughter, a cousin, etc. And in all the roles she played, she never once disappointed anyone; always the kindest, earnest person she was. And as I sit here trying to think of what to say, I am truly at lost of words. Can't remember when was the last time I saw her... probably the summer of 2006, when she came to KL for a conference.

I probably never told her this, and though it's too late now, I wished that somehow, across the universe or wherever she's at right now, she'd know that I've always loved her very very dearly. And always will.

You will be missed...