See No Evil?

A little piece of advice - do not watch all the sad, traumatic, psychotic, dark satirical or movies that portray reality consecutively. The movies I've watched over a few weeks' time: Crash, The Fountain, The Crime of Padre Amaro, The Royal Tenenbaums, Munich, Hannibal Rising, Pollock, Little Children. I'm sure I watched more movies than that, but they're either not good enough for me to remember, or they stank so bad that I wanna forget.

A lot of thoughts have been swishing in and out of my mind of late; yet I find it rather hard to express them. Could it be due to the lack of usage of my brain... since I'm not taking any classes this summer? Or perhaps I'm just a tad bit too lazy to try to write them out. All the movies I've watched contributed to part of my now-jumbled-up thoughts, and the more stuff I watch the more I stuff I 'collect' from them, hence the utter disorder and right now I just don't know how to untangle them.

It's like, you drop 15 strands of hair every day in the shower and leave it there, and in 14 days you'll get not 210 individual strands of hair but a hairball so grossly entwined together that even if you wish to untangle them you just can't!

Maybe I could do movie reviews. One for each movies. Maybe I could just go about my daily business and not bother bout this nagging feeling of need to put down in words my train of thoughts. Maybe I should go out and talk to people and discuss about it instead of being a mute most of the time. Maybe I should go socialize talk gibberish and make the daily mindless howareyouwhatdidyouhavefordinnerohhowniceyourshoesaresonicewheredidyougetitfrom conversations or even do some dumb things. Maybe I should get pissed drunk and see how it feels like to be drunk. Maybe not.

I wonder if I don't speak for a superduper long time, would I ever forget how to speak. I think I would.