....you get an 'emo' person like me right now.
In the midst of trying understand the mechanisms of transporting the negative particles in our body to somehow generate energy to form ATPs (a form of energy that our body use to carry out other cellular processes), and trying to think of a way to burn extra pound of fats sitting around my waist, I suddenly have the urge of writing something.
I was gonna just use the simplest human language to talk about what I'm studying right now (for my Biochemistry midterm coming up in one and a half day's time), and make up some crap bout it to humor you guys. But then I read my aunt's comments on my last post, and my heart sank a notch whilst reminiscing about the past.
Ahh yes, the good ol' days. Back when I was still a small kid, wishing and praying that time can fly a gazillion times faster, can't wait to grow up as soon as possible so that I can do whatever I want, not having to be told "don't do this, don't do that" by my parents, or all the rants and yelling that constantly filled my home which sometimes can cause serious migraine, I'm not kidding. (I seriously pity my neighbors having to put up with all the sound pollution we contributed to the neighborhood.) 'Twas all about growing up and all the infinite possibilities of how I get to live my life however I want it. Oh wait. Did I say "good ol' days"?? hahah sorry. No of course it wasn't all that bad; there were plenty of happy times too. But the best part of it was that I didn't feel guilty about anything at all; I didn't have to. Because at that time, youth was everyone's luxury. And when you have that, you feel like you're at the top of the world and it feels as if no one or nothing can bring you down.
Except of course, that isn't the case at all. Youth is a luxury that you can never cling on to forever, much like there's nothing to halt the silky sand running down from the hourglass. In fact, we're merely borrowing our youth from Time. Or rather, Time is the theft of youth, whichever way you wanna think. I look at my parents, my grandmas and I see the much increased wrinkles on their faces, the grayish white strands of hair, the tired smiles, the slightly slouched body frame which seemed to have shrunk over the years, and I fear that I'll lose them faster that I'd want to. I fear for the uncertain future that will befall us, and I fear for myself - how am I gonna cope when the time comes?!
Maybe I'm thinking too much. Afterall, there's a saying that goes something like, "It is the Fear itself that is more fearful than the actual event that initiates the fear in the first place." So meanwhile, we shall do what we can. And get back to mechanisms of burning more fats. Hah.
To everyone who's reading this, if you ever feel the same way, and when your heart aches for the same reason, do something about it before it's too late. Give them a call right away! Not when you've done showering or reading a book, or finishing a huge project, or whatever, because you never know. So do it now, like,.. NOW. =)
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i hear u! same feelings here. getting more aware of the fact tht time leaves no one behind eh? u think it's partly due to us being away fr home? sometimes i wonder if i'm still in msia, wud my perception of things change?
yeah Jun, time leaves no one behind at all. maybe being away from home contributes a bit to us feeling this way, but i think most part of it is the time factor. even if we're back in msia we'd have perceived the same thoughts, looking at them grow old and all. well there's a possibility that we're so caught up with our lives that we'd have neglected them, but when we slow down and look around us it'd have hit us just as hard, don't you think?
Then again, there's nothing much we can do to stop Time. not now at least. :)
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