The Big Question

If you notice, there's a pattern for everything that's going on around us. Working people wake up to go to work; those can't afford a means of private transport rushing to catch public transportation whilst those more well-to-do rushing to avoid traffic. Students hurry to classes. Rushing for deadlines, rushing to eat or shower so as to save time; rush all the time. Rush through our routines that we're so used to till we never thought of questioning them anymore.

This is probably not new to you - us living a routine life. Heck, this has been what we're doing since the day you're born. Never-ending loops of cycles. Think about hens and eggs. Living things and their procreations. Seasons of the year. Time, in general. The only way you want out of the cycle is to be dead. Everyday we wake up eat work eat again work rest eat fun sleep. New day and the same thg repeats itself. A cycle that can't be broken. So what, you ask, is the whole purpose of this damn cycle?

I met a Christian a couple of weeks ago and she told me, the whole purpose of living is to serve God. A biology teacher once told us, the whole purpose of life is to procreate, to make sure we left our 'seeds' before we move on to the next realm. A Buddhist told me it's a chance for us to do good, so that we'll have a better lifetime when we're reincarnated. Some told me, it's a path of self-discovery, it's the means that matters and not the end, for ultimately we're all going to wilt. My friend who loves food (like me) said, of course we live to eat!! What about those who read this, a penny for your thought?

If you do not already have a theory of your own, the more you ask people the more variety of answers you'll get, and the more it'll confuse you. I used to love pondering about this during my me-time, over a cuppa hot coffee, and be fascinated at how other people answer this big question of Life. But the truth is, no one knows the truth, if there is one. And that's something we'll never find out. I forgot what made me wanna write about this... but it doesn't really matter. Whether or not we found the truth to this puzzle doesnt really matter as well, as long as you live your life to the fullest. And this, is very subjective. You might come across a lot of people who'd judge you and/or your actions, people who disagree with what you've done or how you lived your life, but ultimately the only person you have to answer to is yourself. They don't like? Too bad. Afterall, we can't please everyone, can we?

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Note: Haha I find it extremely hilarious that I started out wanting to make a point which after writing the first two paragraphs I completely forgot what it was, hence ended with such a crappy and cliche conclusion. How dumb. I seriously have (and I mean SERIOUSLY.) memory problem. Early stage of Alzheimer's? *gasps*

Just Random Stuff

1. I wish I had 25th hour in a day. Or maybe 26th or 27th. The more the better. I've been sleeping so little that now my biological clock is really adapting it. I wake up automatically after 3 friggin' hours of sleep. Even if I don't wanna wake up and just lie there trying to go back to slumberland, I can't. And I seriously don't like it. I feel I'm owing my body a lot of rest... and I'll age faster than I already am.
2. I'm taking 2 cups of coffee per day on average for almost 2 weeks now. Needed the caffeine to stay awake.
3. There's a student (a senior) working in the International Center who looks 98% alike to Tom Welling in 'Smallville'. He's Russian. One of these days I'm gonna walk up to him and start a conversation... maybe in Russian. heh.. ;P For now I'll just sit in one corner and 'glance'. (Can't stare.. that's rude!)=P
4. Every Monday, Wednesday and Friday at 8.45am I'll be outside my classroom waiting for the 8am class to be over ( my Biochem class starts at 9am). Or rather, I'm just waiting for the students to stream out from the classroom. Uhh okay.... correction: I'm just waiting to check out my eye-candy the 'Skateboarder Dude'. Really cute. But that's all, he looks like one of those shallow guys who goes oh-im-so-cool-n-good-looking-dont-u-just-want-me kinda person. Attention: I said he seems that way, not he is like that. =)
5. I didnt do so well in Quantitative Analysis midterm, not because I didn't study well enough but because I think in a different (and obviously wrong) way while solving the questions. And it's 25 marks a question. So there goes my A for QA. I can only aim for a B- right now.
6. Did I mention I got a part-time job as a student interpreter? My job is to translate what the lecturer teaches, from English to Mandarin, for groups of people from China who're here for courses. But it's not a regular thing, so whenever they need me only I'll have to work. But all this will have to wait till I get my Social Security Number.
7. I stuffed myself with a lot of food for the past week and this week too. Gotta find new ways to release stress!! Chean's roommates have lots of candies lying around in their place... and I just can't resist them! I swear I heard them calling my name!

The Little Voice In My Head

Catch it.

What?

Butterflies.

It's kinda like asking me to grasp Time.

Hmm well, not really. If you have the right equipment i.e. a net. You can.

Uhh. What's your point?

Stop brooding already. Not acing a subject won't kill. And what doesn't kill will only make you stronger. You might not be able to grasp Time literally, but you can use them wisely. It won't wait for you, but you can be ahead of It.

I guess. I'm just lost. I dunno anything anymore.

You are exactly what you think you are. Relax. You'd be fine. You'd survive all the unlucky things that happened to you. And you'll be tougher. It could be a blessing in disguise, who knows.

Stay positive and don't ever give up. You're not nobody. You have so many great friends who care bout you. Be contented. And there's much more in life than what you're dwelling on. Dare to dream, and make it happen.

Thanks. Oh by the way... sorry I didn't ask earlier... who are you?

Oh, don't you know? I am you...! See you around! *pooofff disappeared*

You Will Always be Remembered.

Love is something you can't measure by words. Right now, I'm at lost of words to express how I feel. But it doesn't mean I don't care, or feel. I don't care bout what people say - oh its a circle of life just get it over with its no big deal everyone dies - it may be true but I'm still entitled to some personal feelings that even the truest philosophy cant rob me of.

But to those who care, I won't dwell so don't worry. I'll be okay. =) Love life, my dear friends.

*Deep down in my heart, there lies a special place just for you and me. May you rest in peace.*

Scary Scary

What, you'd think I talk about Halloween since it's just around the corner? Well you're wrong! Something else frightens me more than the pumpkin-carved scary face or all the vampirish bloodish ghostly costumes. Make a guess... it's something that's in every single one of us, just differing in the quantity of it. Heh yes, I'm gonna talk bout my best friend who's commonly referred to as Lipids.

I'm telling you, they are invading the entire world. It's not just my best friend but many million other people's too. I walk around in campus and I see all these humungous people walking around and it aches just to see them moving, you know what I'm saying?! It's like ouch, how are they handling their extremities man?? Imagine having layers of blankets and comforter wrapper around you. Try walking. Try flexing your arms or run. You just cant do it without feeling it's such a hassle! And all that is just temporary. What you've just experience is only one tenth of what the real obese people are feeling. Imagine having those bulky stuff sticking on you permanently. Implanted on you under your skin, and you have to carry around wherever you go. Oh my god, it hurts even just by thinking of it.

I have this labmate who's in the same lab session and she's... huge. Every time I see her I feel my limbs stiffening. I feel like her weight has somehow passed on to me such that I'm feeling the difficulting moving. Every movement I make makes me think how it's gonna be like to have Lipids under that part of body. I know it's all psychological.. it's in my head.. ya-da ya-da ya-da. But still. I felt awful. In lecture, there's once I sat behind her and I cant help thinking if she can feel it if I poke her back. Can the receptors penetrate through the lipids and send them to the CNS? (Of course it can, I know, but it's still never fails to amaze me!) I swear I felt scared and worried and uneasy for most part of that lecture that I couldnt really concentrate. That's just... bizarre!

Don't ask me why it's bothering me so much. I have no idea. And by all means, I have no intention to discriminate against obese people. I mean no harm or disrespect. It just bothers me that's all.. for some unknown reason. I was gonna say, "I dunno, maybe it's just me, but I dont think so." People all over the world (look at all the health mags and recipes and talk shows) are getting more worried bout obesity and how our food intake is affecting our health. In fact, New York health officials are proposing a ban on the use of trans fats in city restaurants and naturally created quite a big hoo-hah over there.

Some don't know exactly what is the artificially hydrogenated trans fats, and some are just pissed off that they were told what and what not to do. Check these comments out from the public or/and restaurant owners, some are hilarious (read: stupid and brainless):

1. "I'll tell you one thing. The American public doesn't like to be told what to do."
2. Quote from LA Times: Should the government prohibit restaurants from serving foods known to cause heart disease? And if trans fats go the way of indoor smoking, what's next? Sugar? Bacon? Marrow?
3. Another wondered if a black market in trans fats would emerge: "Who has the time to go all the way uptown for a case of fat?"
4. "It's dangerous when, beyond the realm of food safety, government steps in to tell us what foods are good…. Chicago has a ban on foie gras; maybe it will be butter in Seattle, salt in Minneapolis, bacon in Miami."
5. "They're taking away our right to be stupid, which is our primary American right."

After reading the whole thing, me and my friend had the same quizzical thought: what on earth..??? It's like, there's this group of people who's trying to help keep the public away from unhealthy food choices and fight the epidemic obesity, yet some are just so unappreciative. The last point (No. 5) was just plain dumb and funny. I didnt know American's primary right is to be stupid. It's just hilarious!!!!!
So I'll just leave it at that and you guys make a conclusion for yourself. Do you think NY officials are breaching the human right of food intake even if it's for their own good? Or you think it's perfectly reasonable to do so? Leave a comment if you might. I'd say it's a good thing to do. Too many fat people around, it's just tough. For them, I mean. It's really not easy being a fat people. Hmm maybe that's why they console themselves by eating more hence a vicious cycle. Besides, having one more fat people means taking up more space. Our population of the world is growing like crazy, plus the decreasing death rates, so it'll be nice to have one less fat person - more space!!! =P
I hope that 10 or 20 years down the road, I wont become one of them....
p.s.: For full article about the ban of trans fats, click here.

Mooncake Fest Night

It was Meng's bday as well... and Vinod's bday was 2 days before that day, so we had a pot luck party at the poolside area under the bright-lit moon. So nice! Friggin cold that night though! Brrr...~ [From Left: Sheena, Izzana, Ida, Min, Chea Ean. Im the only one sitting.] 

Thoughts and Jots

I was working on some quantitative analysis homework seconds ago when I suddenly feel like writing. 'twas quite cold just now, so I had a cuppa hot chocolate, and a marshmallow to go with it. :) See.. that's why I love cold days! You get to pamper yourself with nice and warm food :P

Anyway, looking back, its October 4th today and I've been here for 3 weeks. Out of the 3 weeks, I fell sick for almost a week. Should've seen this coming, giving the fact that I haven't been feeling that great and healthy since June. See I haven't been exercising for one, and secondly I went out a lot with my friends that my sleeping time was kinda screwed up (Errr I hope my dad's not reading this post!!!). So yea, should've seen the downfall of my health coming.. But now that it's passed, I felt so much better, and refreshed. It's like hitting the Restart button of your laptop when it hanged. It's not fun waiting for the whole system to shut down and restart, but when it's back function, you just can't help feeling good eh?! That's how I'm feeling now. After the sucky week, I felt exceptionally good. =)

Oh before I forget, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Jet, Jie Li, Vinod, and Siqin's dad!! :)

Okay lemme continue with some everyday life stories of mine. There's this guy, who's staying 3 doors away from me, he looks like a prefect. He reminds me of the head prefect when I first joined CH Prefectorial Board - 'Kang Wen'. The nod every time he sees you.. it's just funny. He looks so serious, yet cute, when he doesnt smile, that is. When he smiles (I saw that in a picture), he actually looked goofy... in a good way. =) Hmm you must wonder why I mention him.. Uhm.. there's no reason to it. I just felt like telling you guys that's all. ;)

Righto, and another story - bout my trauma in class when I see obese people! Will continue tomorrow! Back to work for now!

It's October Again

Dear all, it's October again. The month when leaves are starting to fall. The month of which many many ppl's birthday falls on. My dad's, Siqin's dad, Vinod, Jet, Jie Li, my cousins Ah Ni and Yong Zhi, Sheena, Emily, Lih Lih, Boon Ping, Yeen Leng.

As I type, I'm still feeling sickly, and I think there's smthg wrong with the water, cuz the more I drink it the yellower my pee became! So scary...

Well today's weather was very goood! Windy but not too cold, sunny yet not too bright! and I saw a bunny stretch its body! It's the cutest thing I've ever seen for a long long time! Oh yea I forgot to tell, there are plenty of bunnies in the university village. Saw a possum on campus the other day too! Err but I have to say, it's really not a very pretty animal.. looked like a pig-rat hybrid to me.

Hmm uhh.. been a while since I write bout something that has real depth. Feel so shallow of late. Bleh.~ Gotta stop before I feel like a bimbo. Later!